Graphics Pattern Of My Life

None of my teachers and friends expect me to enter SMAN 10 Malang, but my parents really want me to enter this school. I confused when I have to choose the school I want to go to. Kesatuan Bangsa School Jogjakarta, St. Louis Surabaya, and all the senior high schools in Mojokerto offer a free ticket for me to enter the school. I should be thank because of this, but in fact I become confused because of this. Then, I face the fate, I enter SMAN 10 Malang. Here is the story begin..

I continued my basic skill in physics, that already change my whole life for almost one a half year. Accidentally, I chose this subject then I found the joy. I kept watch on it, and it brought me bronze medal in Science Camp and a lot of achievement in my local district, province, even nasional competition. I keep enjoy the joy till I graduated from SMPN 1 Mojokerto.

So that’s why at the first year of my senior high school, I’ve planned to get my second medal from OSN 2012 in physics or maybe the other subjects. But the condition don’t support me or maybe it just because of my paradigm. During my first lesson at school, I felt something different, I felt that I have a lot of things to do rather than concern on OSN, such as, learning to live programs, homework, new curriculumn demand, target score, and the other dormitory stuffs.

Although it makes me bored and frustrated at first, but finally I can handled it. I kept study physics more than the other subjects. Almost a month, then I found that it was difficult to divvy time. Dormitory stuffs were so suppress me down, because, you know that, I never wash my cloth, iron my cloth, make queue when want to take dinner or just wash the plate by my self. That is why I got confused and I start to lost my orientation. I become more focus on my school stuffs and let my first planning left behind. In this condition, I think that graphic pattern of my life goes down. Although sometimes goes up.

I haven’t a good quality of life since then. My life become more terrible when the time close to IGCSE examination. I start to become imbalance. A few days again, OSN was held and the teacher gave me opportunity to join that. There were 6 students who joined that, including me. The test was so complicated because it was an essay. All the questions were quite difficult to do moreover I got headache and flu. Arrghh.. what an annoying condition. I felt not well-prepared to face this. Yeah, desperate! That’s the word I can say and I hope to happen. I just can wait a miracle can happen. But that is a lie -.-

When the result came out, I knew, I am not in the best 10 students who joined physics in Malang. Maybe the best 20 students -.- Huh, hurt me a lot ! But after that, I realized that, its all about PRIORITY! I got bad in my IGCSE and also my OSN because I can not FOCUS!

I am really bad in organizing and managing time. I lost my way and lack of motivation. But now, in 2013 I gonna make it true, passed OSN 2013 and go to Samarinda. Although I change my direction to astronomy but I’ll keep on tract. Always believe that there is always God beside me and there is a way when there is a will. I’ll make true! If finally I can’t do that, it means that is not my way, and I’ll look the other doors open. In this 2013, I really want to be a thankful person and I promise for that. Keep close to the God and make a good relation with the other. Aamiin

By continue doing these, I’ll never feel my graphic pattern of life goes down like before. When I am down, it will not make the plot on my graphic down, but it will make me struggle harder to do the best and be better everyday. Although it still make the plot on the graphic down but it will increase the gradient up in a short time.