Why are we here? What is life all about?

 Tomorrow is a secret, yesterday is a history, and today is a present. Sometimes we goes up and sometimes we goes down. And we never know what will happen to us tomorrow. Yeah, it’s just the preview story of my life.

Tears, laugh, love and affection, everybody ever felt it, including me. For me, life is just like riding a rollercoaster, sometimes you are in a top position and sometimes you are at the bottom, it fulls with surprises, we never know what is the next track

When I am in the elementary school, getting the best rank is a usual thing for me. Since I was in the first until sixth grade, I always got the best score in my school. But when I was in junior high, I didn’t feel the same way. I entered the best junior high school in Mojokerto and the atmosphere was really different. The school was famous with the smart disciples from both part, city and regency in Mojokerto. All of my friends was a great and competitive disciples. I am just the minority of being students from outskirt elementary school which has bad facilities in Mojokerto. For the first time in my life, I sit on the third rank. It was a point when I felt dissapointed with my self. It’s like I can’t forgive myself and also the things around it. I still can’t accept it. I start to think what’s wrong with me. Try to manage myself better then before. Finally my second report was really satisfying, I was success to sit on the top rank of paralel class. I felt to start go up the roller coaster.

When I passed Olimpiade Sains Nasional and went to Medan, I felt in the top of the roller coaster. It was a great bless because I never expect it to happen. I was selected as one of the East Java’s delegation to join physics olympiad. Among 13 students who passed the test, there are only 2 female students and the other was male students. It was a big piece of pride when the governor of North Sumatera treated us very well. He provided a pleasure place to stay, Tiara Hotel, J.W Marriot hotel, and many more, and delicious meal to eat, of course. He gave us some uniforms to wear and also give us something that we called as pocket money. My physics teacher already taught me well and equipped me with everything.

A great confidence was lay on my soul, although I didn’t really understand, i kept optimism. But the fact was really made me fell into a deep sadness. I didn't success to get the medal. I lost control. I began to blame the God, i really dissapointed with myself. Actually, it’s not because I lost at the olympiad, it is because I thought that my parent, my teachers, and also my friends will be dissapointed. It was like jumped down a sheer ravine. It was hurt, I’ve ever cried all day in the hotel. But it was not last for a long until my mom called me and said it’s okay my dear, God decide the best.

From that moment of silence, I started to wake up and reliazed that life is never flat. Sometimes we goes up and sometimes we goes down. But we are the main power who determine how is the way to go up or maybe down. On every sadness in my life, I always remember that God already prepared the best for us. And finally the answer came out. How come? Here is the answer.

Five months later, my school sent me to join Science Camp in Surabaya. It was an olympiad for all Rintisan Sekolah Berstandar Internasional students from all over Indonesia. And I was the delegation to join physics olympiad. I was a little bit afraid and I thought that trauma still left on my mind. 

When I’m in this point, I start to think that I’m on the peak of rollercoaster’s track. Yeah, I got my first medal, it was a bronze medal. I’m sure my parent will proud of me. But there was another thing that made happy than just got a medal although it wasn’t a gold medal. Finally I knew how was the feeling of being the real winner. How beautiful to be a grateful person. How amazing to appreciate ourselves after doing something. It doesn’t matter how huge the price that we will achieve, it’s about how discreet we are when we achieve it. For me, the hardest thing in life is to know which bridge to cross and which bridge to burn. Because we don’t know what will happen so we don’t really know which bridge to cross, that’s what make me say that life is a rollercoaster.